So I've been out of school for a little over 2 weeks for Christmas break so far, and I go back in like 5 days... I've been home for what feels like forever and it's made me realize how fucking bad my mental health has gotten since school started. How much pressure and stress I've put myself under to be perfect and get good grades. I focused so much on being perfect I haven't taken anytime for myself and now I look at the past 5 months and have no useful and fun memories. I don't have any friends. And it is about to be 2022. I'm not ready for any of it. Going back to school, a new year, I'm not ready to do anything. I have no motivation for anything and I feel numb again like I used to. I just want things to stay the same forever and to sleep away the pain. God I'm so unprepared I just want to dissapear.
Hey guys.. I haven't been very active on here for a while bc I've been in a bad place mentally and also have been really busy with homework (highschool is way more grueling than I thought) but yeah I've also been binge watching greys anatomy and I'm currently on season 16. Anyway I love you guys and I'm bord so let's talk :)
You have p!atd in your bio… god I love you. And 5sos and Harry and Shawn and others but mainly I don’t see a lot of people who like panic and I literally love Brendon and all their songs especially the older stuff, I mean pftw is cool and all but nothing will compare to the older ones and yeah so mhmm rant done I love you know I hope you know that