nikayla ♡

legally twenty f i v e.
physically sixty-five. 
mentally a twelve year old boy.

o b s e s s e d 
with all things 
b i g cities 
a n d 
libraries. 

i have eighteen t a t t o o s.
makes me feel b a d ass.
even though i'm very s h y. 

i break my own h e a r t
more than o t h e r s do.

i want to be a writer
that s p e a k s and
comforts the 
l o n e l y
like others 
have comforted 
m e. 

forever a 
r o m a n t i c.

i only r e m e m b e r 
to breathe at the bottom edges
of the o c e a n. 

please,
paint b e a u t i f u l sunsets 
on my w a l l  so i only see 
beautiful t h i n g s. 

if you l o v e me, i will
make you feel like
you're l a y i n g in a bed 
of c a l l a lilies. 

i will chase my d r e a m s 
until i am consumed by 
every ounce of its m a g i c. 

nothing satisfies me more 
than the way l a n a del 
rey sings h o n e y. 

i binge watch 
criminal m i n d s 
and law & order: s v u
like no other. 

don't hurt my 
baby r e i d. 

❝no one is safe from heartache - 
might as well love dangerously.❞

❝he said loving me was like loving 
1,000 souls and when i wrote another 
story, he said 1,001.❞

❝i write stories so i can live
vicariously through my characters.❞

❝maybe by the time this song is done
i will be able to be honest, capable
of holding you in my arms
without letting you fall 
when i don't feel beautiful & stable
maybe it's enough 
just to be where we are.❞

❝in the end, we all just want someone 
who chooses us over everyone else. 
under any circumstances. ❞

❝if a writer falls in love with you, you
can never die.❞

❝when a boy says he's perfect, i ask
him what book he's from. ❞

❝my heart is an unmade bed; it might
look messy, but i swear it's a safe place
to rest.❞

❝if nothing else, i can promise to 
keep your hands warm and your
heart warmer.❞

❝good girls go to heaven 
and bad girls go everywhere.❞

my reading lists go to e i g h t y.