When you're beside me, nothing else seems to exist.
I see my friend, and that's all there is.
I don't need to think if what you say is what you feel.
I see it in your eyes, your love is for real.
But as soon as a distraction comes, you turn and run away.
And it hurts you see, that you don't want to stay.
You don't want to sit with me and hold my hand.
You don't want to be with me for hours on end.
And I get that sometimes distractions can get in the way,
I don't need for you to always stay.
But I want to feel important, like I know the distractions are.
I don't want it to be forced, your mind to be far.
I don't want to have to tell you, that I feel like I'm always waiting.
That I'm just here, yours for the taking.
I hate having to initiate, to ask for time alone.
For me to always be waiting by the phone.
I hate that you confuse me, you love me but you leave.
Aren't we supposed to be some sort of team?
You always say I've done so much for you,
I denied it, but I know it's true.
I would do anything to make you smile, to ease your pain.
But with each smile, each easy road, my life is filled with rain.
I know that you love me, I know that you can't see,
What all these distractions are doing to me.
You can't hear the silent tears that fall,
You can't see the years I spent waiting for you to call.
Then I give up, I sigh and ask for you.
But I shouldn't have to ask, you should want me too.
I know this, I know this alright.
What do you think I think of in my countless sleepless nights?
Why do you have to be so oblivious?Can't you tell?
Tell that the girl you "love" is just an empty shell?
I used to have life and a smile, back when you actually cared.
I used to think "he likes me" when you looked and stared.
But it's gone now, you don't even see.
The cross I have to bear, what you've done to me.