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I've noticed I'm angry all the fucking time and all ever want to do is be alone. 
          
          
          I want to wrap myself in my bedroom and stay there. 
          
          
          No eating.
          No drinking. 
          No using technology. 
          
          
          Just pure silence and sleep. 
          
          
          
          Yeah, maybe that's what I need. 
          
          
          
          Maybe then I can stop making passive aggressive remarks and stop being mean, right? Because I'm suppose to be 'perky' 
          
          
          I'm suppose to be happy, right? I'm suppose to bounce on my heels and flash a smile at everyone and everything. I'm suppose to be intersted in makeup and jewelry. I'm suppose to have real friends, right? 
          
          
          
          Lol I have issues, really bad issues. And as I get older it seems they get worst, yet everything is becoming so clear. 
          
          
          
          "What?"you may ask.
          
          
          
          
          Well, that's simple  
          
          
          
          
          Life fucks you over more than those stupid claw machines that people actually waste their money on. 
          
          
          
          
          Ps. Sorry if i seem like an attention whore it's definitely not my intention. These messages are thoughts from my head that sometimes calm my anger. It's mostly about my family problems and shit, so yeah. Hopefully, I stop being a little bitch and handle things soon. Or just kms 
          
          
          
          
          
          

You literally make me hate life. 
          
          
          
          
          
          Because of you I don't want to make it through life. 
          
          
          
          I don't want to have a husband. 
          I don't want to have kids. (Even if I did I wouldn't want them to meet you, ever.) 
          I don't want to see the good in the world because there's men like you everywhere. 
          I don't even want to live past 19! Because I know I'm just going to have to deal with your bullshit. 
          
          
          
          
          God, I wish you would just leave. 
          
          
          
          
          You literally make everyone's life a living hell. And I hate it. 

God I hate you so much. 
          
          
          
          
          You're like the bitter taste that never leaves. Man, if only I'd knew what life would come to when choosing you, I would've never chosen you, ever. 
          
          
          
          
          I hate looking at your face. 
          I hate living with you. 
          I hate your opinions on women/people. 
          I hate your morals on life. 
          I hate how I'm related to you. 
          I hate how selfish you are. 
          I hate how your always on my case about the smallest fucking things. 
          
          
          
          
          You were never there and even after a second chnace you still aren't. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          You've made my life crash down when you moved back in. But of course you don't care, right? As long as you get what you want, it's fine and dandy to let people suffer. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Hahaha as soon as I leave the house I don't ever want to look or come back. I want to soar free and live my own life! 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I hope one day I look back and regret ever writing this but for now I don't. Jackass. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          

Your conversation section is interesting to say the least

Oh so inactive lol 

Happy Birthday, Val, 
          Happy bday to a special person, 
          Yeah Val you are a special person. 
          I will never thought i'd have written these things to someone who's far miles from me. 
          Do you remember the first time we met each other? 
          You started call me "spaghetti woman" since i told you where i was from, and that was funny. 
          Nobody ever called me like that. 
          Then we went on talking about foolish things, hell we pretended to talk about people who were our boyfriends ( fake obs) or neightbours, so basically we made up everything from our insane mind. 
          And now? 
          Now we are here, talking every day with Heather too. 
          You made me know her, and we are "the trio" today.
          I couldn't expect more than you, my americans online best friends.
          You are fantastic girls. 
          Maybe if i'd run into you one day while i walk through the street, i won't recognize you, 'cause i don't even know how your face looks like.
          But beside everything, I'm here, writing you these words from my heart,to a person who's only God knows how far from me, but even so close to make me laught and make me smile just with a text. 
          Thank you Val,
          For making me know another special person, Heather. 
          For starting to follow me that day, i will never forget. 
          And also thank you for being what you are...
          A very nice person, but also pretty mad ( well, we are crazy too, right Heather? ) 
          Now it's better if i quit to write, or you'll fuck off me, vmbecause of the long message.
          HAppy BIRTHDAY VAL
          I LOVE YOU ❤
          And love you too Heather. 
          You're crazy Spaghetti Woman. 
          
          @JustApieceOfGarbage
          @The_Goddess_Nyx_

Damn, wattpad just keeps getting better and better.  #noitsnotimjusthopingitwillbecausetheamountofbullshitthatpeoplebelieveisfuckingterrible 
          Have a good night! 

The last shadow puppets is my favorite band right now. Yes. 

I tried. I really did. I tried to be happy. I tried to ignore the insults and the false accusations, the lies, the face change, and the way they were ignoring me.
          
          
          
          
          
           But now, I can't. 
          
          
          
          
          
          And I know, I haven't done it for months, yet this seems like the right call. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          My blades are sharpened and my skin is ready. 

@-Horror-Movie-Fan- omg did you see heywatchyourmouth and misteramazing  exposing leafy? O.o