BalLiStic_bAStaRd

Depressed af right now.  
          	I just want to get away and never come back. I want people to say they love me, and not lie when they say it to my face. I want people to stop judging for I am the way that I am. I want people to stop beating on my mom and just punch me instead. I want my dad back. I'm sorry for ruining everything mama. I try to be perfect but even then I never will be. I drink until the bottle is gone and smoke where I can't feel anything anymore. I hear you weep under your covers in your bedroom when you put on a fake smile and say everything is okay. You have to work two jobs just to save my ass and keep me alive. I just want our perfectly imperfect family back together again to fill up our wounds and broken promises. In the end there's always going to be a "I want." Right now I just want you to be happy mama, so please tell me how I can make you happy and wipe the tears off strolling off your face. 

BalLiStic_bAStaRd

@AngelicaHun Some people more than others but yeah
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bils_angel666

@BalLiStic_bAStaRd  Don't we all think this ALL the time
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Poppins_Yahooize

I'm following everyone back again, so this is a message for you
          Thanks for supporting me, thank you so much for being there even when I was gone
          I really appreciate you

BalLiStic_bAStaRd

Depressed af right now.  
          I just want to get away and never come back. I want people to say they love me, and not lie when they say it to my face. I want people to stop judging for I am the way that I am. I want people to stop beating on my mom and just punch me instead. I want my dad back. I'm sorry for ruining everything mama. I try to be perfect but even then I never will be. I drink until the bottle is gone and smoke where I can't feel anything anymore. I hear you weep under your covers in your bedroom when you put on a fake smile and say everything is okay. You have to work two jobs just to save my ass and keep me alive. I just want our perfectly imperfect family back together again to fill up our wounds and broken promises. In the end there's always going to be a "I want." Right now I just want you to be happy mama, so please tell me how I can make you happy and wipe the tears off strolling off your face. 

BalLiStic_bAStaRd

@AngelicaHun Some people more than others but yeah
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bils_angel666

@BalLiStic_bAStaRd  Don't we all think this ALL the time
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BalLiStic_bAStaRd

MY LIFE UPDATE: Woke up, drank two cups of espresso, read a few magazines, fixed a grilled cheese and ham sandwich with salt and vinegar chips, and started talking to my cat for like an hour and its only 9:36AM. I seriously need a girlfriend :) Yeah like that's ever going to happen. Back to fattening myself up! Yeah I'm looking at you cookies on the top shelf! You are not safe!