I was a Rogue, a Rebel , an Outsider. I couldn't think straight with all this pain of my heart screaming at my soul yelling " How could you Ashlyn!! How could you do this to your own pack !! " I cant understand not having a feeling everyday crawl up my back for doing this, but I couldn't return to my family now .Not now. Not ever. My mate left me for my best friend so I didn't even have my love to help me through this ..all I keep thinking is why did I do this to myself? how could I let this happen to me ... How ?