Josh took my hand again and we waded out into the surf. I could not keep the grin off of my face- this was just amazing. I felt like a little kid again, being so giddy about only swimming in the ocean. That little kid that had not a care in the world, and everything was perfect. No matter where you were at the moment, you just knew you had your family to go home to, a warm bed to sleep in, endless amounts of food and snacks, everything you wanted (except for that stuff you saw at the store yesterday that you just can’t stop begging for, knowing you’ll get it eventually). A place you knew you were loved no matter how many tantrums you threw over the stupidest little things. A place to be happy and safe and loved forever and ever and ever, and nothing would ever change, and everything would stay perfect, just the way it is, for all eternity. And that’s the only thing right now, in the whole entire world that I want ever so much to have back. It was my life to claim once, but I couldn’t hold onto it long enough. Because nothing lasts forever. And if it ever does seem like that, well, you have to realize that almost all of the good things in life are only temporary. All the good things- the love, the happiness- it’s all too good to be true.