Um... it's just that, I used to be happy. Um, yeah, past tense. Sucks, I know. But, they did tell me that I wouldn't be soon or I'd forget the feeling or whatever, so what I did was I was told and wrote it down.
I said it felt like, like light, sunshine. I didn't really write anything more; I guess I couldn't really be bothered because it seemed scary, but mostly it seemed ridiculous that this would happen.
So, so now I just have this paper, this stupid scrap of paper that just says sunshine on it. And what the hell am I supposed to do with that? Feel happy? I -I don't. It... it just sucks.