Love can always have an affect. Whether it leaves you happy for the rest of your life, or leaves you all alone questioning. Love always has an effect. That's why I'm here questioning myself. Do I still love him? Yes. I will always love Aaron, so right now looking at him I made my decision. I won't and will not ever, ever stop loving Aaron. He taught me how to love, how it is okay to love someone, and how it is okay to be loved. He may have left me, but the saying goes "if you truly love someone then set them free, and if it was meant to be they will come back." When Aaron left me that night, part of me left with him. Over the years when we have been separate I never knew he was keeping tabs on me. I never knew he still cared after he left. But, I do know now why he left. He left because we both were doing this for ourselves. Loving the idea of being in love with someone. We both didn't know how to love so we were each other's firsts for everything. And, now I realize this is the first time I truly love someone.
I realized he is still waiting for my answer when I was thinking. I walk over and put my hand on his cheek. He seems shocked to what I'm doing and looks me in the eye questioning. "Aaron, I still love you, and this time not in a puppy love way. But, in a way I can see us together in our own eternity." And with that, I lean in and kiss the man I love. The man I will hopefully spend my eternity next to. But, that is only if he can put up with me. I sigh into the kiss and think it in my head once more because it sounds perfect.
I will always love you.