It's not okay, is it? I mean the fact that she can make my body react in such a way? Or is it because she's married that makes things so much better? Or is it that I'm only 17 and she's 30? No maybe it's because she's a huge star who many young women idolize, I even idolize her. He's everything, sweet, caring, protective, helpful, loving. Everything is great, he was only helping me and it turned into something more, amazing friend and more is it more or is it just what we make it seem like? Am I in love with him or her?