n. a kind of psychological exoskeleton that can protect you from pain and contain your anxieties, but always ends up cracking under pressure or hollowed out by time-and will keep growing back again and again, until you develop a more sophisticated emotional structure, held up by a strong and flexible spine, built less like a fortress than a cluster of treehouses.
-the dictionary of obscure sorrows
Adam Larsson believes his father has broken him beyond repair. Nightmarish reminiscences keep him caged in his own hellish thoughts, driving him to keep everyone at an arm's length away. Including the ones he wants so desperately to be close to. But after finding his mother's dead body then suffering horrendous abuse by his own father's hand, Adam is terrified of loving anyone. So, when his best friend of six years suddenly moves in and says that he's in love with him, Adam doesn't know what to do. Danny has been his dream boyfriend since he was 17 years old. To say that he was surprised to learn that the man of his dreams loved him would be an understatement. But Danny isn't supposed to love him. No one is.
So, he ignores it. For two whole months.
But Danny Evans isn't a patient man. For six long years, he was convinced that he would be condemned indefinitely to live his life the way his father wanted him to. But that all changes one day when he's abruptly set free. Not about to waste any more years living a lie, he decides to go after all he's ever wanted. And the first and most important being his desire for Adam. But Adam keeps pushing him away, refusing the love that Danny so desperately wanted from him for those six lonely years.
Through many mistakes and misunderstands, and now a murderer, Danny is hellbent on proving to Adam that he deserves everything the man wants and more.