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Over and Over (Lashton)

Over and Over (Lashton)

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lia By myhellismymind Completed

Ashton is okay right now.

He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he.

Luke knows.

He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter.

Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. 

None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke.

Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die.

And Luke will be all alone.

lmao why can i relate to this paragraph so much someone kill me
Same when I have an anxiety attack I feel really sick like I'm about to throw up which makes my anxiety worse because I absolutely fear vomit
ikayla_r ikayla_r Dec 27, 2016
He use to actually cut which is what makes this more realistic :(
yikageao yikageao Mar 04
rereading yet again because this fanfiction always hits my feels
closetlarrie closetlarrie Sep 17, 2016
if ashton dies in this book, you better find a good hiding spot bc in coming for you
hazirwin hazirwin Feb 26
Take back your opinion and shove it really deep up your stupid ass