Just an Ordinary Girl
Mental Health is a difficult journey, here's my partially fictionalised, sort of memoir a way of looking back at my child hood and my mother's severe illness. To let it go. Some parts people may find upsetting but it's not a mature piece. It's a sadness for the past and for people who can't help being unwell and not only the sufferer but those who are affected too.
It affects not only those who are suffering from it but also the family and friends who care for those who are inflicted. The best we can do is try our best together to muddle through.
This is not totally me, so is not autobiographical in the true sense but a lot of the elements are with flourishes of complete fiction to add to the piece to make impact to the emotional side of the retelling. I have also mixed in my other experiences of mental health with other people to create one character. ,
I felt confusion, anger and fear as a chil but now I am a mother myself I realise my mother was unable to help the way she was and that's so sad, that we never connected as mother and daughter.
I'm in a good place now and have a small close family and very close friends.
This is the observation point of where I have looked back a the past with an adult view and perspective over time. My mother couldn't help her illness but it made life very difficult for those around her and there was a massive fall out from it. My mother died this year. This is my way of letting go. My virtual therapy. It may be upsetting for some to read.
A close relative of mine recently said to me, that bad days are blue days. That they have learnt that they can get through those and just see it as something to get through that doesn't last. It's their way of dealing with it.
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