"It's because I love you! I love you so goddamn much that it scares me. I'd do anything for you and you know that."
He ends on a heavy breath as the tears slip down my cheeks. I hang my head, sniffing and wiping the tears away. Slowly, I turn around to find him standing and staring at me with his sad but determined pupils.
Love -- it's a word with so many different meanings. A word that can either make you or break you.
And for me, it did just that.
Four years ago I went through something which caused me to lose more than just my heart. And now, four years later, he's back.
Why? I don't know.
But what I do know? I know that a little part of me still loves him, even if I don't want it to. Unfortunately, I can't simply just get or forget the boy.
There's more to him than there was before and no matter what, he keeps breaking my heart. Re-opening fresh wounds and rubbing salt in them continuously.
Will I ever be able to love him again? Hold him again?
I don't know, but I know that life is not that simple. And sometimes you can't get what you want -- especially with the consequences and baggage that comes with it.
With me being the self-pitiful person I am, do you ever think we'll have a chance?
Under revision (re-writing/re-vamping): 1st January 2017
Highest Ranking #443 Teen Fiction
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