They say that true human growth in humans is not their size or shape but their characters. I think that Helen Keller put it quaintly when she said "character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved." Truer words have never been spoken. Once upon a time I was an easy going child, immature and naïve and head over heels in love with a man. I gave him my all in gentleness and character. Then my trial began, I was thrown out, sabotaged and humiliated. That was but five years to this day. Now I have developed MY character through the suffering and trial. I am a new person. The line between virtue and vice is unclear to me and quite frankly makes little to no difference to me. Now I have to return to the place and to the people that wounded me, traumatized, took everything from me. Then killed me. I have no choice but to return. However I will say this: To you Zach, to you his family and friends, I have but one thing to say: You have been weighed. You have been measured. And you have absolutely. Absolutely been found wanting. Welcome to the new world. MY world. God save you, if it is right that he should do so. Authors Note. Each chapter will be a theme about a virtue or vice, like, mercy, anger, rage and forgiveness.