The White In Gray [Muslim]
Fidah. A good, obedient girl, from a rich, and very conservative Indian Muslim family.
Her sorted out life flipped around when she was offered a chance to study abroad.
This wasn't how it happened. Back there where she lived, girls were married at her age, whether they liked it or not. Their consent didn't matter at all in front of their parents'. And then there was a demand for children, and soon there were enough running around and their entire life went taking care of them.
Fidah knew that this was what was written for her, seeing it happen to every girl she ever knew. She accepted it as her destiny.
She had hardly seen the possibilities, and always denied them when she did, in fear that hoping too much might destroy what she had.
She was happy that her parents were at least letting her have some fun before she left them.
But when she found herself out of her protected bubble, tender and vulnerable, finally exposed to the world and all it had offer, and somehow exchanged hearts with the most beautiful soul, she realized she could actually be happy.
But she had to do something to get that.
What exactly? Rebel? Run?!
Independence was a dream, but could she stab her parents' trust for it? They loved her more than anything, but weren't they stripping her of the right to choose her way of life?
Should she have given up? And blindly married whoever her parents selected for her?
Or should she have ran away with him? He, who promised her everything in the world and more?
She was, but, sadly, coward enough to not confront her parents. To try to pretend that nothing ever happened, to forget just how happy she could have been, and do it like she was supposed to. Like he never happened, like they never happened, that nothing had changed.
But, she had only tried, and when you try, failure is a possiblity.
© Zainab Alam, 2015.
[Unexplained Urdu, Hindi and Islamic references.]
/ / DON'T READ IF YOU'RE A TMB READER, I SWEAR THIS BOOK IS CRAP. But your choice