psychedelia | phan

psychedelia | phan

27.8K Reads 1.7K Votes 18 Part Story
Emma By thenightlockfox Completed

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about.

But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan.

And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester?

Or will it be too late...

WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

xPhan_trasH23x xPhan_trasH23x Dec 22, 2016
Ew what why did that dan just ask for his signature on her cigarette box wtf?
SatanIsMyRealFather SatanIsMyRealFather Feb 21, 2016
Oh, Dan that's because when you take drugs you trigger chemicals that make you happy and if you take them often you brain stops naturally making those chemicals and they can only be 'unlocked' by taking the drug.
NikkiThatWeirdPerson NikkiThatWeirdPerson Oct 20, 2016
I just a book where dan and phil didnt end up together and this already sounds good.... PASS THE MOTHAFUKING TISSUES AND LETS GO
velvetpml velvetpml Dec 07, 2016
why was that fan casually walking down the street at 4:30 am
_Hoodles_ _Hoodles_ Oct 16, 2016
I started singing 1D
                              SI GET OUT GET OUT GET OUTTA MY HEAD AND FALL INTO MY ARMS INSTEAD
I'm scared to get close
                              And I hate being alone
                              I long for that feeling to not feel at all
                              The higher I get
                              The lower I'll sink
                              I can't drown my demons,
                              They know how to swim