psychedelia | phan

psychedelia | phan

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Emma By thenightlockfox Completed

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about.

But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan.

And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester?

Or will it be too late...

WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

howellester- howellester- 7 days ago
the mentioning of 2012 phan is 
                              
                              
                              
                              unnerving
                              
                              (that the word idek i have a smol vocab)
bbarakat bbarakat Jun 17
THIS MADE ME LAUGH BECAUSE HE CALLED HIM A SPOON WHILE ARGUING
Oh, Dan that's because when you take drugs you trigger chemicals that make you happy and if you take them often you brain stops naturally making those chemicals and they can only be 'unlocked' by taking the drug.
I just a book where dan and phil didnt end up together and this already sounds good.... PASS THE MOTHAFUKING TISSUES AND LETS GO
_Hoodles_ _Hoodles_ Oct 16
I started singing 1D
                              SI GET OUT GET OUT GET OUTTA MY HEAD AND FALL INTO MY ARMS INSTEAD
PlopPgirl PlopPgirl Aug 01
I don't know why but I immediately thought "is Phil pregnant?". Yup good job brain that is totally it