psychedelia | phan

psychedelia | phan

38.5K Reads 2.5K Votes 18 Part Story
em By thenightlockfox Completed

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about.

But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan.

And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester?

Or will it be too late...

WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

  • amazingphil
  • dan
  • danandphil
  • danhowell
  • danisnotonfire
  • dark
  • depression
  • dilhowlter
  • drugs
  • eatingdisorder
  • fluff
  • phan
  • phil
  • phillester
  • psychosis
  • wattys2016
  • youtube
I call people walnuts. Mostly because of a thing on tumblr I read.
"Glowing eyes" we aLL ARE STRANGER CREATURES THAN WHEN WE ALL STARTED OUT AS KIDS
Just got reminded of the impossible quiz when dan was being proud of Phil and yelled "phIL LESTER!"
tronler13 tronler13 May 16
it's past 4am & i have to go to work in 5 hours but here i am, reading again for the fourth? fifth? time. way to go, me.
Hologram09 Hologram09 Apr 10
yo i like how this isn't all romantic and 'ooh i love phil but he doesn't know wow'
dans-leg dans-leg May 12
Welcome to the fanfic, the first paragraph is about being facefirst in vomit. We hope you enjoy.