suicidal • narry storan fanfic

suicidal • narry storan fanfic

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Hailey By MrsNiallHoran Updated Apr 17, 2015

One Direction is bigger and better than ever, though with all the die-hard fans, there's bound to be some die-hard haters. Bullies tend to target the weak, the sensitive, and this was no exception - the haters targeted the weak; they targeted Niall. Niall was the only one that was ever actually bothered by hate, and so, they sent it all his way. And it hurt. It hurt a lot, and slowly but surely, it broke him down.

Nowadays, Niall's swerving down onto a path of self-loathing and self-destruction, though nobody would ever know. On stage and in front of people, Niall hasn't changed a bit. He's still the vibrant, cheerful, happy-go-lucky Irishman he used to be. But when he's alone, the true reality comes out. He's fallen into a void of blackness and depression, and has gotten into some dangerous habits - drinking, smoking, self-harm, and not only that, but he's also bulimic and suicidal. He hates himself, hates everything about himself, but nobody would ever know that.

And to make matters worse, Niall has a stupid crush on his charming bandmate that he just can't seem to get rid of - Harry. How couldn't he have feelings for Harry? Harry's perfect. Not only does Niall have this crush on him, but he envies him. If he was as beautiful as Harry, both inside and out, then his life would be perfect. It had to be. When you were that perfect, how could anything in life possibly be wrong? But Niall tries his best to ignore it, since he doesn't need stupid feelings screwing up his life, too. He doesn't have time for feelings. He's swirling down into a dark void of hatred and depression and bitterness, he has to deal with the fact that he hates himself and the fact that he's too much of a goddamn coward to just end his life like he wants to; he doesn't need his stupid crush to make things even worse. But you can only ignore your feelings for so long, and when they turn into love...

NIALL JAMES HORAN DO NOT CUT YOURSELF YOUNG MAN YOU ARE PERFECT THE WAY YOU ARE
To be honest it took a lot in me to post what I just did, I'm sorry if you don't care for it and that I wasted your time, I didn't mean to.
I know this is just a story, but it's not worth it, don't do it, I tried it and realized I wanted to live when I did, please to anyone that's going through this, your life matters, don't let anyone tell you different.
Truth_Be_Told_To_You Truth_Be_Told_To_You Jun 08, 2016
It would be ironic if you made the cover of this fan fiction very happy, just like it was described.😉
jason_graceless jason_graceless May 29, 2016
OH GOD THE MOST HORRIBLE THOUGHT JUST OCCURRED TO ME
                              
                              WHAT IF NIALL IS LIKE THIS IRL AND NONE OF US KNOW BC HE HIDES IT SO WELL
                              
                              IM MAKING MYSELF CRI
                              
                              MUCH PAPER SQUAREFLAKES
hannahpaynter hannahpaynter Oct 30, 2016
I am listening to drag me down and Niall's solo came on and I wanted to fry