⚠️ No it doesn't have to do anything with Lindsey Demeola. I just used her name that is it. It doesn't have to do anything with her personal life. This is a fan fiction of Justin Bieber and Jason McCann. But still it doesn't have to do anything with them, I am just using them for characterizing my story. ⚠️ I'm scared. Always so scared. Living with him was the worst mistake I've ever made. I thought that everything will be under control the second a cigarette met my lips. But it wasn't. I lost control over everything and always wished for more. Staying with him was the only thing I wanted but the only thing I was holding on that caused all the sadness and the pain in my life. But again leaving him wasn't what I wanted. It wasn't what I expected without him and getting another one to fall in love with me to forget him failed and made me loose more control. Two things caused my heart to keep beating and to my brain to keep working, two things kept me sane, two things kept me alive and still breathing, Jason and drugs. *We are all searching for someone whose their demons play with ours*