It's always been Rex Ford.
I've always loved him. I think I always will.
Sometimes though, you have to walk away from those that you love, because of the love that you feel for them. When you truly love someone, you'll protect them and not yourself.
So I did.
No explanation. No reason. I just walked.
I knew that Rex would never understand my reasons, or understand that I did it because I cared more about his feelings, than I did my own. I walked away from our relationship because I couldn't burden him with something so awful from my past, and I'd do it again in a painful heartbeat.
My secret very nearly destroyed me. I couldn't ever let it destroy Rex.
Now nine years on, I'm faced once again with the man that I deeply loved, who I will always deeply love.
A twisted turn of fate has thrown us back together, and I know he's not happy about it.
Rex used to look at me with only love in his eyes; now he looks at me with only hate and confusion. That hurts more than I can ever say. Hurts more than I can ever let him know.
For Rex still can't know nothing. He can't ever know my secret, and he must never know THE REASON.