I'm fighting a war inside my head every single day. If that's not exhausting I don't know what it's.
"I don't know what to do Lucas." I say as my heart burns in my chest and my vision becomes blurry.
"Please Riley." Lucas says has he sit down next to me. I feel his heat radiating off him and scoot over creating space between us.
"Lucas don't." I say and a place my head on my forehead as the tears slowly drip from my eyes.
"Do you still love me." He asks and at look at him will pleading eyes.
"Please Lucas !" I say and my chest starts to burn and I begin to run out of breath. The tears spill from eyes rapidly, I am unable to stop.
My eyes spilling all my emotions, the ones my mouth would never say. I close my eyes and a memory of Maya flashes through out my head. I can't take away her happiness, I am the only one who hasn't. I won't ever deprive her of something she needs so badly... To be happy. Why ? Why couldn't I have fallen in love someone else. Why can't I stop loving him. I take my trembling hands and I gently wipe the tears away, gaining my clear vision back. I take a deep breath feeling the air swarm into my lungs. I advert my eyes to Lucas and block all my emotions out.
"I don't love you, in that way any more." I say as bold as I can covering the emotions on the tip of my tongue about slip.
I look Lucas in the eye as he searches for my real feelings. He knows me all to well. I look away and see his face turn breaking as he looks at me. I stand up and smooth my dress out.
" don't look at me like that. Please go find Maya. If you love me Lucas you will go." I say and a tear rolls down my cheek once more. I bend down and kiss Lucas on the cheek. I leave without looking back because if I did, I would tell him the truth.