Forelsket (Teacher/Student Frerard)
Forelsket is a Norwegian word used for the euphoric feeling you get from being in love.
Gerard never wanted to be homesless, in fact - he doesn't even remember why he left in the first place. He brought this upon himself and he can't get the courage to find his way back to where his grandmother lived.
Not just courage that plagues him, but the fear of dying. He's already slowly dying and he doesn't understand why he's so scared if it inevitably will happen, but he is.
Gerard hates that he's doing this to himself, now having to face hunger pains and lice and any other sickness that comes his way without any doctors help.
Gerard is just existing at this point, living being a lot harder than dying, but that's something he doesn't want yet.
He wants help, he needs it. But he's just clueless as to where to find it.