I can describe myself in three words.
Drapetomaniac. Eccedentesiast. Wishful thinker.
Para mas maintindihan niyo sabi sa google...
Drapetomaniac, is a person who has the overwhelming urge to run away.
Eccedentesiast, someone who hides behind a smile, when all they want to do is hide and/or die.
Wishful thinker, basically day dreaming. Wishing or imagining something would happen that isn't exactly realistic.
My life is just one constant battle between wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. I feel lost inside myself. I feel so empty. Yet I feel so much pain.
Ngunit kahit ganito ako ay gusto ko parin namang maramdamang may magmahal sa akin at tatanggap kung sino ako. Ang magkaroon ng lugar sa mundo at magkasilbe. I want to feel that I exist and alive. That somebody will look for me if I suddenly disappear. Someone who'll care and whose afraid to lose me.
But I guess that will stay as a wishful thinking. That will never happen. Masakit talagang umasa. Because Uno couldn't be that someone. He broke the only part of me that is capable of loving.
INSTA SERIES 4: UNO'S SIDE