"I know I probably shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't be disappointed or angry that he no longer loves me the way he used to. I know it's my fault, after all I was the one to make the choice. But if I could go back and choose again, I want him to know that he would always be my pick. I was foolish. I was young. I let fame get to my head. Why must you Remind Me of the past that I want to forget so desperately.
I should've chose him.
I should've held him closer.
I should've told him that I loved him.
But, is it possible that through it all, I can chose again?"
*Mentions of abuse-- both verbal and sexually. Depression and self hatred a subject to be aware of. No form of self harm or eating disorder. Possible character death both major and minor. Any other warnings will be placed before the chapter begins. Hope you enjoy.*
~ note: this fic is like my baby it's been through so much shit and i know it's not the best writing you'll ever read but i wrote it in a very dark time in my life and my mood- it reflects a lot off of the plot and the descriptors used. please be kind and know that im growing and so is my writing ability everyday. ilysm. enjoy ~