" Onee-san, why are you sad ? " a little girl ask me while looking on me with those innocent eyes of her. I force myself to smile but I know she didn't know that my smile is fake " I'm not sad.. " " Then why are you crying ?" Another fake smile flash on my lips and I put my hands on the top of her head " Onee-san is not sad " I lied. She look at me deeply on my eyes but I smile again, she let out a sigh then she say a goodbye to me. I look to her until she disappear on my sight. I sigh and look to the ground. I felt that someone is coming on my way but I don't want to look on him or her. I just want to be alone... but being alone can make me feel stupid and that makes me feel hurt even more. " Lucy... " I slowly look to his eyes.. His eyes are sad like mine. " what are you doing here ?" " Can I do something for you to make you feel better ?" he ask me. I shook my head and smile " I feel better " He kneel down on me and take my hand as he gentle squeeze it. " But that's not your eyes telling on me. " I bite my lower lip to keep my sobs but my sobs escape to my lips. Tear fell on my eyes. " C-C-Can you fix my heart ? C-Can you heal it ? C-Can you say to my fucking heart to forget that stupid man ? t-that this heart of mine will never beat for him.. Tell me Zeref... Can you make my heart to forget... .. .. .. Natsu Dragneel ? " I don't want to feel like a shit... I don't want to love him.... I don't want this ... I just want to kill myself so that I can't feel this pain. I just want to forget him.