this is why I cry myself to sleep
I needed one more medium in which I could express how much I have been hurt and used. It's gotten to the point where I feel like I can't tell enough people about why it is I fall asleep on a wet pillow every other night or so, or when my eyes begin to swell with hot tears as I'm doing the simplest of tasks. It's gotten to the point where I'm bitter and I'm angry and I'm sad and I'm in love and I'm happy and I'm lost and I'm confused.
I'm not documenting all this to get back at anyone. I know myself better than anyone else, and I know that this is one step forward for me towards becoming happier than I was the step before. Names will be changed, but truths will stay truths.
I started writing this in May 2017 (fin - January 2018), trying to make it into a narrative, and hadn't written anything in it until recently. This has become my diary that I neglected to write in until I got the courage to immortalise this chapter in my life with words. Nothing but the truth is in between these virtual pages, and with that said, it is from my perspective, not anyone else's.
I hope this helps in some way or another, for anyone who is in a similar situation or is just curious or whatever. It's what you get out of it that matters, as it is with other arts. Be safe, and stay gold. x k
(cover art credit to: @regards_coupables on instagram)
5/12/2017 - humble rank of #311 in Non-Fiction (first ranking!)
8/12/2017 - it got even better omg #273 in Non-Fiction
20/01/2018 - AHHHH #252 in Non-Fiction
02/02/2018 - so grateful #209 in Non-Fiction
04/02/2018 - BISH F IT UP #191 in Non-Fiction
11/02/2018 - I honestly hope it helped you! #68 in Non-Fiction