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Phan self harm

Phan self harm

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amazingerin1 By amazingerin1 Updated Aug 19, 2015

Here I was standing over the all too familiar sink with blood pouring from my wrist. The shiny metal object still held in my hand as I looked in the mirror at myself disappointedly. I hate myself and I just want to die, but I'd never commit suicide. I couldn't do that but if I was walking and a car came speeding in my direction I wouldn't move. I washed off my arm and grabbed a bandage from the cupboard. I pulled down my sleeve and entered my bedroom. I put the blade in the usual place under my books on my top shelf and sat on my bed with my earphones in watching my favorite YouTuber Philip Lester. He has beautiful blue/green eyes and crisp black hair and I love him. I have been noticed by him a few times but nothing major, nothing compared to what I want. I have always thought about meeting him and talking to him and I know that we would click straight away. We both love the same things such as muse and anime, but the problem is that I'm just another obsessive fan. 
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This is probably really irrelevant but I'm 1 day clean and yeah, sorry.
--GreyRose-- --GreyRose-- Jun 15, 2017
I probably shouldn't read this because it will make me want to ya know do bad things to myself but it's not like I had a clean streak or anything so...
- - Jun 08, 2017
Actually me when enyone text me but then I realise it's my mum
MoshoSwirls MoshoSwirls Oct 31, 2016
J just realized that Dan asked PHIL for editing tips, yet Dan edits most or all of the videos from what I've observed.
_cheesewiz_ _cheesewiz_ Feb 03, 2017
I can relate to this so much the self harm good family everything good but me
TheLeoHoe TheLeoHoe Feb 26, 2017
Is this my life story cuz i relate to everything lol *cries* lol