SHORT DESCRIPTION
San Diego, 2014. Jamie is neurodivergent, in an open relationship, and hopelessly drawn to the one person she shouldn't want-her best friend. With Jason away in Cuba and her boundaries blurring, Jamie must face the messy realities of desire, identity, and love without rules. Set across San Diego, Havana, and Medellín, this story explores what happens when love refuses to stay in its box.
LONG DESCRIPTION
Set primarily in San Diego, 2014-a city that feels as alive and complicated as Jamie herself-this is the story of a neurodivergent woman trying to make sense of her restless mind through the systems she builds to keep it steady. With Baja California just down the coast and scenes unfolding years later in Medellín, Colombia, 2025, the novel moves fluidly across time and place, mirroring Jamie's own non-linear process of understanding.
Jamie is in an open relationship with Jason, who is living temporarily in Cuba, navigating his own path abroad (or getting followed by chickens and dogs with souls). Back home, Jamie finds herself wrestling with a growing crush on her best friend, Nadia-a pursuit that everyone, including Jamie, knows will not end well (or, leave a permanent mark).
At its core, this is a story about the messy realities of love, desire, and identity. It's about what happens when the boundaries we set-between partners, between friends, even between parts of ourselves-start to dissolve. With clarity, humor, and emotional nuance, this novel explores what it means to live authentically in a world that rarely makes space for difference.
"If you love me, you won't leave me."
Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation.
With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook.
A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too.
She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him.
Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom?
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