HIV-PTSD: A memoir
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As a community journalist in the 1990s I spent years researching if there was a way to rethink AIDS as the plague was ripping through the bodies of my dear friends and lovers. I jumped into a harrowing world of bravery, protest, denial, and tragic death. I avoided testing for HIV until I was sure I could control the chaos n uncertainty; the harrowing thought of living w AIDS more than dying; and how I ultimately learned to let go and accept whatever fate would deal me. Somehow I came out physically unscathed, by HIV anyway, and "negative" (to date)... but not emotionally.
Content Outline:
1. An Alternative Lifestyle
2. An Early Frost
3. Love God Hate Sin
4. SanFran on Oxygen
5. LGYT
6. Bathhouse Steam
7. Sun Goes Down on Ron Kelly
8. The Edge Coffeehouse
9. Neil Thing
10. Rethinking Denial
11. Angles Vancouver
12. Brad on the Beach
13. VMCs Naked Men
14. Doug Collins Causes AIDS
15. ActUp Blood Bath
16. Nanaimo News
17. I Love You...I Hate You
18. Psycho Power of Attorney
19. St Pauls Overnights
20. Beach Volleyball Crunch
21. King of Hearts
22. My Heart will go On
23. Yoyogi Park
24. Kimi Keiken Ueno
25. Tokyo AIDS Evangelist
26. Marck's Helmet
27. Confronting Christine
28. Early Onset Aging
29. Team Lloyd
30. Tyler's Teeth
31. Family Down Negative
32. Asexuality Anxiety
33. Blood Sugar's Dark Magic
34. Anti-pRep: My Doc's Red Book
35. COVID: AIDS Rides Again
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