Sometimes healing is harder when you know you're doing it for someone else. Why can't we bleed when we want to? Why can't we hurt when we need to? Why does everybody tell us to shut up and try to be happy? Why can't we embrace the pain until we're actually ready to be happy?April Aronson learns that she can't fully heal until she's ready in this tale of heartache, jealousy, angst, suicide, and coffee. Healing is harder than breathing underwater. But we all know that.