Silver's memories are gone, but that's the way death usually goes. You wake up by the Styx, you realize you're dead, you pick a name, and you pay Charon for a ride across the river. If you have nothing of value to give, well, Charon deals in other currencies too - including ones of the flesh. After a quick lascivious transaction, Silver finds themself sitting on a bed in their newly assigned room. They are given a diary, which is the most important item they now own, and a peer support worker, Ifris, who is less than stellar about the job. Silver isn't prepared to go through the stages of grief for their own death, but they're even less ready for the deal they made with Charon: Recover their memories and the reason they died in record time, and they'll be given a once in a deathtime chance to avenge their murder. At least, Silver's certain murder had to be the case. They doubted they slit their own throat open. There's one major problem: The only way to trigger memories is to create a little shock to the system, which is most easily attained by having an explosive climax at the hands of the beasts that hold Silver's life story. *This book is not appropriate for readers under 18!* Content warnings; this story contains some sensitive subject matter, including drug addiction, violence, police brutality, and transphobia/homophobia. There are also several sexually explicit scenes, many with monsters.