Blake McDermott, a senior at Darwin High, has a reputation, and not a desirable one. After his girlfriend broke up with him in front of the entire school, leaving him humiliated, he decided to come up with a game of revenge. He had to make girls fall in love with him, sleep with him, then break their hearts. But when Asher Miller, the school's artsy, quiet, openly gay kid comes into the picture, the rules suddenly change after Blake realizes all the girls are too easy. To give him a real challenge, his friends want him to score Asher as his own. The catch? He needs to do it before school lets out and dump Asher on prom while also completing his list of all the girls in the school.
Blake agrees, thinking it would be an easy win. However, Blake is homophobic, and sleeping with a guy would never be something he would do or something he even considered... or is it? What would happen if one of Blake's previous lovers came back into his life? What would happen if Blake falls for Asher and finds himself trapped in a love triangle?
What happens when everything just goes entirely wrong?
This is "The Fuck List."
Similar to a bucket-list, "The Fuck List" is made to be completed within a certain amount of time. Unlike the rest of one's life for a bucket-list, there is only two years for the fuck list to be completed.
Join Blake on an emotional journey of self-discovery, love, and devastating loss as he battles the relentless grip of addiction. Struggling to break free from his demons, he navigates the highs of fleeting happiness and the crushing lows of relapse, all while searching for redemption. As he fights to reclaim his life, he faces heartbreak, unexpected connections, and the weight of his past-forcing him to confront the painful truth that change is never easy. Will he find the strength to rise above, or will addiction pull him under once more?
"When something terrible happens to someone, everyone feels sorry for you at first, they take your hand and cry fake tears and say how 'special' you are, how strong you are. But after a while they forget...Then they don't see a person anymore they just see this terrible thing and think you're terrible because of it...It's like a little switch that goes off in people's heads: one minute everyone is your friend and they care oh-so much, then, when things die down, they become terrified of you. You'd be surprised to see what fear can make someone do."
Justin Ivanov has never led much of a normal life, but when his sister passes away, his entire world falls apart. Trapped in an abusive relationship and in a school where everyone is scared of him, Justin continues to deteriorate, pinning all his hope on his confused best friend, Ben Fulton. He struggles to keep his family together without them finding out the hidden secret of his sexuality. But the more he fails, the closer he gets to losing himself forever.
Ben Fulton doesn't understand what depression is. He doesn't understand why people have it or how to fix it. But when the sudden death of his best friend's sister leaves him feeling empty, he comes too close to comfort with just what depression can make someone do. Trying to sort out his own emotions, sexuality, and future out, Ben also has to balance trying to save Justin. But the more he tries, the more his feelings grow for his best friend, and the closer Justin gets to destroying himself.