[This work in particular contains an inside view of Karkat's self hate, and does include *triggering* discussion of self destruction. This is not everyone's favorite version of Kar- You have been warned.] [This is a POV from a female] It was nearing the end of your twelfth year of high school, and the boy troll you sat across behind you in class still hadn't said a word. Not to you, not to anyone else. You had talked to your friends about it, though they all simply waved him off as "that weird quiet kid". You didn't look at him that way. When you saw him walk through the halls of your school, you could tell. You knew enough about inner pain to be able to tell when someone else felt it too. Today you've decided that he will no longer be a stranger to you. However, you had no idea just how deep the rabbit hole went. This, is your story.