ECHOES OF THE WIND : Jacob & Renesmee

PART 2 OF "AGAINST THE WIND"

"Echoes of the wind" that continues the another loop in Jacob's and Renesmee love life?
Will she choose Jacob as her eternal love? Or there will be someone else in her heart?

Your interest and support will be highly appreciated.
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I ran upstairs, shutting the door behind me, catching my breath. The streams of tears filled my eyes. All I could hear was silence and the sweet breaths of those present in the hall like a soft lullaby.

I shut my eyes.

"He should be well aware of what you feel!"

The words bounced in my head, I opened my eyes back again, catching my breath. How do I explain this? No! I would never be able to show them, how much both of them mean to me. I wish I could just let them look into my mind, so that they could see how in love with them I am! They are the two integral pieces of my world 'where I am the child of the moon, raised by the sun, walking with the winds along the sky drawn by flowers.'

I can't let go of anyone. I don't want to miss them the rest of my life and keep consoling the hole they'll leave behind, that would ache in the quiet light of morning, in the dark-ink spilled night, in the bitter of blue dusk because both of them.....had left a trodden-black mark on the path to my soul.

Then how could I choose and spend every day for the rest of my life proving myself that I made the right choice, where the sorrow of losing another would hang heavy in my chest, like an anchor pulling my heart down to tear it apart, where the dignity would scream to walk away from the decision I made.

No! I thought. I cannot let this happen to me, where with loss comes so many other feeling: feeling of blame, torment, anger, sadness, heartache and more. I am bound to those feelings that conquers my heart as if it's a kingdom.