❝i should have said no. i should have just hurt you and left you again. but i couldn't. i had to save you. because i loved you. and because the me before you was just a hopeless boy with superfluous dreams. and you defined me, rain.
and then, after all the anger you had for me leaving you, you left me. after i didn't let you die that night.
and a new me before you was born.
a me before you left. a me before you died. a me before you fucked it all up. a me before i stopped loving you and started hating you instead.
a me when you were still in that bed with me, your hair spread across my pillows, your eyes like liquid amber as you told me you loved me.❞
in which ford remembers the one night he spent with his ex-girlfriend, rain, before she left.