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Where Am I? (boyxboy)

dontgetyourhopesupp

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Parts 27
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Reads 689,150
Votes 29,843
Parts 27
Time 6h 24m

dontgetyourhopesupp

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Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness.
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This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are. 
Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.All Rights Reserved

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What I Have Left by undercover_story

Noah - Quite and loving, gets bullied for being gay. He doesn't talk to people and deals whit depression at times because of the way he isolates himself. All he truly wants is to be accepted. What will it take to get him out of his shell. Theodore - A soccer player who hides his true self. He is a in the closet gay and loves Noah, his ex best friend. What will it take for Noah to forgive him for what he has done and love him? (BoyxBoy) This is a story about love and what it is worth. Two boys, Noah and Theodore, go through the battle to fight for what they want and acceptance they deserve. I hope you take the time and hear the story about how love can truly conquer all. Warning: There is mention of self harm.

Forever Yours (MM)(COMPLETE) by ameliaamarie21

"I have a mate. I marked my mate! I don't know what came over me. The kiss was so intense, and i could feel it all the way down to my freaking toes. It was amazing, it was everything. I got caught up in the moment, and now I've sealed my fate. To someone I wish I didn't. He's gonna be the fucking Alpha of our pack. What am i supposed to do with that? I don't want that responsibility, and I don't need it. I'm not capable of caring about it. So what did I do? Seal. My. Fate." Ethan comes from a happy home. He has the best dads, the best grandpas, and the best uncle. The best Aunts. He's close with all his family, and he loves them dearly. He's not quite sure about his sexuality, but he doesn't really care. He has two dads, and two grandpas for goddess sake. Who care's if hes gay? Ethan's never really experienced a pull toward someone. Until he met Connor Chase. Connor is a few years younger, and has an earthy scent. It's addicting. It's all consuming. Something deep and dark awaken's in Ethan, and he knows this boy has to be his. When Connors ceremony happens, and the truth comes out, Ethan can't stop himself from wanting the boy. And Connor? Never stood a chance. Connor Chase has a lot of issues. His mental health has never been the best, he struggles with his own demons in silence. No one noticed before, so why would they now?

So Where Does that Put Us (boy x boy) by LifeDeep

"When something terrible happens to someone, everyone feels sorry for you at first, they take your hand and cry fake tears and say how 'special' you are, how strong you are. But after a while they forget...Then they don't see a person anymore they just see this terrible thing and think you're terrible because of it...It's like a little switch that goes off in people's heads: one minute everyone is your friend and they care oh-so much, then, when things die down, they become terrified of you. You'd be surprised to see what fear can make someone do." Justin Ivanov has never led much of a normal life, but when his sister passes away, his entire world falls apart. Trapped in an abusive relationship and in a school where everyone is scared of him, Justin continues to deteriorate, pinning all his hope on his confused best friend, Ben Fulton. He struggles to keep his family together without them finding out the hidden secret of his sexuality. But the more he fails, the closer he gets to losing himself forever. Ben Fulton doesn't understand what depression is. He doesn't understand why people have it or how to fix it. But when the sudden death of his best friend's sister leaves him feeling empty, he comes too close to comfort with just what depression can make someone do. Trying to sort out his own emotions, sexuality, and future out, Ben also has to balance trying to save Justin. But the more he tries, the more his feelings grow for his best friend, and the closer Justin gets to destroying himself.

Hollow | BxBxBxB by ElijahDiva

Connor Johnson seems like an ordinary boy on the outside, but on the inside he's plagued by depression, an eating disorder and complex anxiety. So what happens when he finally hits the end of the line and is forcibly sent to a home for troubled boys? Where love runs rampant in the air and tensions soar as high as the clouds. TW's (these will not be included at the start of chapters so take this as a final warning) Anorexia & Eating Disorder Self Harm Drug Abuse Abuse Smut PTSD Hallucinations/Schizophrenia Suicidal Thoughts & Ideation Hospitals Anxiety Slow Burn This story is NOT promoting, encouraging, romanticising or glorifying topics such as abuse, suicide, self harm, disordered eating, sexual abuse/misconduct or anything like that, it is just showing what the affects of it can be like especially for LGBT+ young people. Please be respectful in the comments and if anyone is struggling do reach out for support!

Selfless: Book Two (bxb) ✔️ by PsychoSunbaenim

Book Two of the Windsor Triplets Trilogy. These books can be read as stand-alone novels, but it is recommended they be read in order. THIS IS A CHRISTMAS BOOK. WINDSOR TRIPLET TWO: THE SELFLESS TRIPLET ACE VILLAN: Ah, I was only trying to help him. The media saw us together with a ring on his finger, his mistake, and now they have labeled us as engaged. I didn't deny it. After everything he has gone through, I wanted to help him. Cade Windsor is magnificent. I wasn't sure what drew me to him. He has identical triplet brothers, and to me, I only see him. Ever since the moment we met in the break room of my company over a year ago, I couldn't stop myself from being pulled toward him. The only problem is-I've spent my entire life believing I was straight, and this little show we have to put on has me questioning a lot of things. The biggest question I have to answer comes from one drunken kiss and the way I felt when it happened. Maybe I have a few things to learn about myself. But I know one thing, loving Cade Windsor will not be a hardship. CADE WINDSOR: Ace Beckett not only told the media we were engaged, he told me it was to help shove them away from the nightmare my parents caused. I was tired of being tagged as the emotionally abused adult because his parents didn't love anyone but themselves. Now, Ace had me agree to keep up this little ruse to the media-he said it would be fun. But I'm hiding things from him. Things that would end our friendship if he ever found out, and I didn't want that. I am in love with him, and it happened completely by accident. I thought I could handle it. Then, one drunken night, he kisses me, and it changed everything for me. I want to pull away while keeping him close. My brain and heart are fighting for dominance. He is someone I can't have, but something I want. But one thing was for certain. Even though it hurt, loving him was no hardship.

Wandering Fireflies by BellaCheshire

One road trip. That was all that it took to tear Zaavan Fleetwood and Vance Dallas's lives apart. It wasn't fair - walls are always built for a reason. The two smoking hot, incredibly athletic rivals were two of the most popular boys at school. If anybody got word of the dark and dirty secrets they were hiding, their lives would be over. But since when was life ever fair? Already on the path to destruction, a newfound battle with sexuality could be the final blow needed to destroy them. That is, if their secrets don't get them first. Because that's the thing with secrets - they tend to get out. ***TRIGGER WARNING! THIS BOOK CONTAINS CERTAIN THEMES ABOUT MENTAL ILLNESSES AND ABUSE THAT MAY BE TRIGGERING OR EXTREMELY UPSETTING.*** Started: April 2018 Completed: May 2019 Edited and re-published: August 2019

Hold Me Close (BxB) {COMPLETED}. ✔️ by ThanatosPatase23

Octaveus was depressed. He knew it, but no one else did. He hid it, just as he hid his scars. He wasn't human either; he hid that too. He hid almost everything about himself from everyone, in order to minimize the ridicule. His mental state, his thoughts, his scars, even his questionable sexuality. But that only fed into his sadness. Drew was insecure. He didn't like standing up for himself in fear of saying something wrong. He didn't even change in the main locker room for PE, he went in the stalls. He was anxious. He wanted to know what was happening and when so that he can prepare for all possible outcomes of that event. And he was gay; his family knew and supported him, but no one else knew. He was too scared of how they would react to tell them. Jessie knew his brother would be teased. It was really a fact. Humanity wasn't too good at accepting of different beings. No matter how human Octaveus made himself look, he couldn't hide his unnaturally pale skin that no matter how hard he tried would not tan or his yellow cat eyes. He just had to try to fit in, same as the rest of their family. Seth was the school bad boy, and secret werewolf. His hobbies included pushing around the Freshman, flirting relentlessly with any and every attractive popular girl in sight, and trying not to think about Octaveus. He didn't want other people to find out about his thoughts on the emo new kid. So, naturally, he made Octaveus's school day a living hell. But he still couldn't figure out why this new kid intrigued him so much, besides that he was obviously not human. {BOOK 1 OF THE 'Scars I Hide' SERIES} *CAUTION: Mature for scenes of self-harm and suicide, PG-13 language, graphic violence, and some sexual topics* IF YOU READ THIS, DO NOT SKIP THE INTRO. IT CONTAINS THE TRIGGER WARNINGS. Sequel: 'Don't Let Go' (Out now) {Forgive me for the horrible stuff in the beginning} [All chapters have been edited.] Cover by @AMTA0206

The Fuck List by trickst3r4gabri3l

Blake McDermott, a senior at Darwin High, has a reputation, and not a desirable one. After his girlfriend broke up with him in front of the entire school, leaving him humiliated, he decided to come up with a game of revenge. He had to make girls fall in love with him, sleep with him, then break their hearts. But when Asher Miller, the school's artsy, quiet, openly gay kid comes into the picture, the rules suddenly change after Blake realizes all the girls are too easy. To give him a real challenge, his friends want him to score Asher as his own. The catch? He needs to do it before school lets out and dump Asher on prom while also completing his list of all the girls in the school. Blake agrees, thinking it would be an easy win. However, Blake is homophobic, and sleeping with a guy would never be something he would do or something he even considered... or is it? What would happen if one of Blake's previous lovers came back into his life? What would happen if Blake falls for Asher and finds himself trapped in a love triangle? What happens when everything just goes entirely wrong? This is "The Fuck List." Similar to a bucket-list, "The Fuck List" is made to be completed within a certain amount of time. Unlike the rest of one's life for a bucket-list, there is only two years for the fuck list to be completed. Join Blake on an emotional journey of self-discovery, love, and devastating loss as he battles the relentless grip of addiction. Struggling to break free from his demons, he navigates the highs of fleeting happiness and the crushing lows of relapse, all while searching for redemption. As he fights to reclaim his life, he faces heartbreak, unexpected connections, and the weight of his past-forcing him to confront the painful truth that change is never easy. Will he find the strength to rise above, or will addiction pull him under once more?

Messed Up Love | BxBxBxBxM by ElijahDiva

*Will be undergoing editing/revamping soon* Riley Smith is about as troubled as they come, he's anorexic but in denial about it and fights a lot. What happens when his parents kick him out then he is forced into an institute for troubled boys. He meets 3 boys and a man who change his life forever. Scars take time to heal, so will the Institute be the place for Riley to find love and get better? TWs (these will not be on the top of chapters so consider this your final warning) Self Harm Eating Disorder (very detailed including weight, purging and anorexic habits) Abuse Blood Fighting Angst Smut Drugs Homophobia Suicide Kidnapping This story is not promoting, encouraging, romanticising or glorifying topics such as abuse, suicide, self harm, disordered eating, sexual abuse/misconduct or anything like that, it is just showing what the affects of it can be like especially for LGBT+ young people. Please be respectful in the comments and if anyone is struggling do reach out for support!

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What I Have Left

Noah - Quite and loving, gets bullied for being gay. He doesn't talk to people and deals whit depression at times because of the way he isolates himself. All he truly wants is to be accepted. What will it take to get him out of his shell. Theodore - A soccer player who hides his true self. He is a in the closet gay and loves Noah, his ex best friend. What will it take for Noah to forgive him for what he has done and love him? (BoyxBoy) This is a story about love and what it is worth. Two boys, Noah and Theodore, go through the battle to fight for what they want and acceptance they deserve. I hope you take the time and hear the story about how love can truly conquer all. Warning: There is mention of self harm.