Faith. Hope. Love
Letting go is so easy for some but not for me. I don't know but my heart is just so stubborn. I don't easily give up. It takes me a very long time to let go. My eyes can always see the other side of the story. A flicker of light in the candle gives me hope for a better future. But that was changed that Sunday afternoon when I communicated with him the feelings I've been holding on...the hurt that caused me so much pain that seemed to rip off my heart again and again. I've tried to hold his hands, but to my surprise, it felt cold. I knew that there was something missing. Well, perhaps the pain was so strong that my love was overshadowed by it. It saddened me to know that I felt that way. But I'd never been so true to my feelings before. I just don't know. I could justify everything that was out of standard but not that time.
Ending any relationship is really hard and devastating. I couldn't believe that I was thinking that way that time. Fear engulfed my heart. There were many "what ifs" in mind. And the thing was I didn't have the courage to say goodbye. It would be just fine if I'd be the one being left behind. I never saw myself saying goodbye. It was true that I've been so hard on myself. I'd been thinking of the feelings of others more than mine. My heart couldn't contain the feeling of hurting someone. In my mind, I knew that I should be kind to myself that time. I should give myself a chance to move on and grow...to be happy. For that one time, I wanted to decide for myself. I wanted to be true to my feelings.
I am Faith and this is my story...