I miss him. I miss how we cuddled. I miss the sweet kisses on my head, and the silent "I-love-you"s before falling asleep. To the public, it would've seemed as though we were dating. Sadly, that's not the case. Yes, his blue eyes are mesmerizing, and his laugh made me feel all warm and happy inside. But I pushed him away. I pushed my best friend out of my life. Because I needed to get rid of these feelings. I couldn't be in love a guy. I couldn't be in love with my bandmate, who had a beautiful girlfriend. I couldn't be in love with someone that I'd known since I was 11. I couldn't be in love with Luke Hemmings.