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Mask of Celibacy

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Reads 137,655
Votes 14,777
Parts 43
Time 8h 56m

Wattys winner

In the late nineties asexuality is all but ignored as an orientation. Jess doesn't understand her complex array of emotions or why she finds it so hard to relate to her fellow classmates. Catholic high schools and churches simply don't address the issue, and the internet is still nascent. 

Jess can't tell anyone the truth. Not even her best friend Care. Instead, she hides behind the guise of faith. Behind a mask of celibacy.


Until she meets Eric, that is. He lets slip that he's asexual, and Jess wants to learn more.

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Watty Winner 2021 for best cover, best YA, and the Wattpad Books prize!

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Status: completed and unedited 

Rating: PG-15 for moderate language and frank discussions about sexuality

Genre: teen fiction romance featuring two heteroromantic ace characters

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Cover designed using Canva Pro August 2020

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Please note: This work is a teen fiction novelization of my multimedia novella "Mask of Celibacy".All Rights Reserved

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