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The First Time I Believed

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Reads 26,504
Votes 741
Parts 32
Time 4h 54m

Mason Morton, after almost being institutionalized for attempting suicide, struggles with dealing with not only his family issues, but his feelings for a boy he knows he shouldn't get involved with and his suicide attempt. Keeping so many secrets, especially from his best friend Grant, strains him, and he starts feeling isolated. 

Will a new romance pave the way to a better future?

Completed: 6/3/2021All Rights Reserved

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