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rachel

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I stare at Matt's face as he looks down, concentrating on the game. I can tell he's so angry. He's holding it in his jaw, he's clenching his teeth. He's up in his head and I don't know what's going on up there but I just know it's not good. Even if I get him back out now, I know that he's going to overthink everything later tonight.

"Matty, it's ok." I whisper.

He immediately looks up and finds my eyes. His blue eyes are bluer than normal. Impossibly blue. Not even a gray blue. But a pure, brilliant blue.

"It's not ok, Rach. I fucking hate him."

His swear catches me off guard a bit. But my eye contact doesn't waver.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

My favorite color immediately changes to blue.
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Two childhood friends have spent a lifetime battling demons. Will life ever give them a break? Can Matty and Rachel find an ending that is even remotely happy?
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This book contains:
Adult language: LOTS of Profanity
Mental Health topics (anxiety and depression, PTSD)
Adult situations: sex, drugs, alcohol, sexual assault

Please be aware that:
THIS BOOK COULD BE TRIGGERING. PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

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