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Bad Girls Don't Cry

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"Scandallous as Hell!"
-Anonymous

"You make no apologies, you exert who you ARE, and the world can get fucked if they try to belittle your core being. Bravo!"
-Minny-Hart

***

When we ask for trouble, WE GET IT. 

I used to do whatever I could to feel a thrill. I'd walk through dark alleys alone at night, drunk on my fantasies of being taken against my will. I didn't understand what any of that meant yet.

This book is an R-rated autobiography about my dark and dangerous sexual fantasies and how they led me to the depth of introspection. It's raw and profound mixed with erotic and terrifying encounters. 

TRIGGER WARNING: contains sexual abuse, drugs, violence, struggles with mental health, vivid sexual descriptions and foul language. 18+ recommended.

Names have been altered for confidentiality reasons. 

Let The Game begin...

***

Cover photo taken by Richard PaquetteAll Rights Reserved

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