"If you kill me, I'd still love you..." Let me just say... This isn't you're typical RusAme FanFiction. At least, I haven't read anything else like the plot I planned out for this book. (And I read a lot of fanfiction)... This isn't you're typical, "i dont love him" Denial, "Self harm because He doesnt love me" Plot or "I get bullied and my parents abuse me" Book... I took my own experiences from life and my own feelings into this book since I'm dealing with some shit. I guess you can say this book is my mind. But anyway, here's a story about RusAme. If you don't like the ship thats okay, there are a bunch of other ships I go into detail on them. But also, there are a lot of sensitive topics, I do kill off characters and gore. Lots. Of. Gore. Any NSFW won't be detailed nor will there be a lot of it. Just a little bit here and there, but mostly Fluff at the romantic parts. There will be really long chapters, about 1,000 - 3,000 words per chapter on a good day. I will post as much as possible. Cover art by Me~ !!!WARNINGS!!! Mental Disorders Suicidal Thoughts and Actions Minor NSFW Abuse Bullying/Cyber-bullying Cheating Swearing (English + Russian) Horrible Russian Skills Terrifyingly long chapters :)