SEQUEL TO GOING THROUGH CHANGES "God, whatever you do, don't take her too! I don't deserve her I know. I don't deserve a miracle. Don't do it for me. Do it for my baby. He deserves to have his mother around. Take me instead. I know I've sinned, but please God-" I stopped and I dropped everything. I threw the chain back onto my nightstand and curled up in a ball crying. "Devin, please pull through" I muttered. "Doody, look after her please. She means the world to me." I cried and cried myself to sleep.