[John will be a bit feminine in this js] I have NO idea what im doing in all honesty. I don't have much experience writing, I just decided to randomly write about a pastel! John and punk! Alexander au thingy at like midnight and yeah. If people actually like it (probably won't), then I'll try and write more frequently i guess.... To John, Alex comes off as your typical bad boy kid who doesn't give a f*ck about what people think or say. He has this grungy punk type style that scares yet entices John. Alex is very interesting to him, the way he comes off so confident and like he doesn't have a care in the world peaks John's curiosity. Sadly, a guy like Alex would never be interested in a weird guy like John, especially if he found out how messed up and broken John is. To Alexander, John comes off as that quiet shy kid who loves to dress with that soft feminine aesthetic you'd see on Tumblr. Alex thinks he's absolutely mesmerizing and really wants to get to know him, but feels like John wouldn't like him once that happened. He always catches John looking at him, has for years now, but thinks he won't like the real him. Alex feels like no one will want him around when they find out how he really is.