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Ash By lesbolester Updated Aug 08, 2015

13-year-old Iris has been living her life trapped in lonely foster homes. She's moved almost every month, due to being antisocial and distant towards the families. Nobody seems to understand the trauma she's dealing with; the memories of her biological family constantly haunting her. It's impossible for her to feel a sense of safety. She never feels at home. 

Although she does experience times of joy, it is quite rare for her to find any source of light in her life. But there are two YouTubers who manage to give her momentary happiness. And all it takes to get their attention is one letter. 

Just one letter, and suddenly Iris' life is where she never thought it would be; In the caring hands of Dan Howell (danisnotonfire) and Phil Lester (AmazingPhil).

[A/N: There are some triggers, but overall this fanfiction isn't centered around those things. However, there is some swearing and sexual content. You've been warned!]

*I am the queen of this plot so y'all better bow down to me*

'I'm scared to get close but I hate being alone.
                              The higher I get the lower I sink. I can't drown my demons they know how to swim.' Bring me the horizon. Drown.
snazzyhowell snazzyhowell Jun 19, 2016
i can relate to this so much, it's gotten to the point where they are my happiness. they've helped me so much
Themangledtoy Themangledtoy Jun 19, 2016
As soon as I read my head isn't what it used to be my screamed, 'let me gauge ur eyes out'
                              Yes mom this is 11 year old music
                              Cause i am 11
                              Ohno she's seeing me typing better go xD
Beanie_RockXD Beanie_RockXD Oct 08, 2016
It's a suck magic trick 
                              Writing in silver and it coming our red
heyoimkatie heyoimkatie May 26, 2016
I came back to look at the beginning of my favorite phanfic
                              This is the one that made me 
                              And this paragraph explains the way I feel about them.
laurene1018 laurene1018 Jun 26, 2016
I wen to see the Conjuring 2 today and it was amazing! Idk the word exorcism reminded me that I saw it.