Sweet hell, that what it was, I blamed my idiotic mother for wanting to move to Russia, if we hadn't moved, I wouldn't be in his predicament. I wouldn't have been kidnap by a insane Russian mafia boss that was smitten with me. I wouldn't have to endure the pain or live through having my body violated. But worst of all... I wouldn't crave for his touch. He as awaken something in me, something that I never knew existed before.