Hello all my loyal readers,
This has been a very trying few months. I have tried to ignore the feeling but it's it's not going away. I have been suffering from depression my whole life. I've had good days and bad days. This quarantine has been the worst thing that could've ever happened to me. I hate with a strong passion to be in the house(stemming from childhood trauma). So to be forced to be home everyday messed with my psyche more than I thought it would. Most days I'm either very angry or very sad and sometimes both at the same time. When I laugh and smile it's a lot of anger or sadness behind it. You know the saying laugh to keep from crying. Well I try it but it doesn't always seems to work that way. It has taken me weeks to finally tell my wife I am not alright. Sorry to spill all of this to you all but I needed to find a way to let my emotions out. So what better place then the place I use for serenity. Thank you for keep me afloat through times where I felt like I was drowning. Y'all are like family in a way and I truly appreciate it.
Much ❤️,
Nykki