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"You can call me crazy, maybe you just drive me crazy"
RENAE
I've never had freedom. I realized that I was tolerating the same thing I allowed when I lived with my mom and Joe, again I was being bossed around, and taking care of an unstable person
Smoke was going through one of his depressive episodes again and here I was putting my feelings aside to cater to him. I wanted him to know that the things he's done weren't okay with me, couldn't even be upset with him for long since I felt like it was my job to pull him out of the dark hole he's in.
I sat beside Smoke as he answered the question's he was being asked. Unfortunately he had an interview with a very popular radio station in Atlanta, so we were back in Georgia for the weekend although he wasn't himself. I felt bad that he was forced to do things even on the days he just wanted to be to left alone.
"At what age did you realize you wanted to be a rapper and what inspired you?"
"I started rapping when I was 19, growing up all I did was listen to rap I used to go on YouTube and watch them old cyphers I'm talking bout with 50 cent, consequence, Eminem. Just thinkin like damn them niggas is hard so I'd be in my room writing pages full of bars then I finally decided to book a studio session"
"Okay so you mentioned that you've been rapping since 19 that's three years of just hard work and grinding so tell me, how was it like hearing your song on the radio for the very first time?"
"Ah man, I remember it like it was yesterday, my bestfriend called me and he's like yo your song's playing on the radio right now, I actually didn't know cause when I'm driving I always got the aux playing but he told me what station it was playing on so I put it on that station. He going crazy on one side of the phone I'm going crazy on the other.. shit was just crazy like damn I'm really on the radio right now"
"Must've been super shocking huh?"
"Definitely"
"Okay well, you brought in your girlfriend today and she's stunning, I mean she's a beautiful woman how'd you guys meet?"
Immediately Smoke shot him a sinister glare, he let out an awkward chuckle before finally answering the man
This nigga is crazy
I'm sure the interviewer caught the look he gave because he seemed a bit uncomfortable afterwards
The guy asked a few more questions and then wrapped the interview up. While walking out of the studio I felt Smoke entwine our hands together
"Boy you are something else"I said, shaking my head
"What I do?" Smoke asked as we separated to each side of the black truck then climbed inside making the chauffeur begin to drive
"You think I ain't see that look?"
Smoke lightly chuckled "What look girl?"
"When he called me beautiful Smoke, you gave him a look. You ain't see how shook he was?"
"He should be"Smoke smiled while staring at me. Whenever we talk I always kept my eyes glued to his although his eyes were repeatedly roaming my face. From my lips to my nose then my eyes, he'd stare into my eyes for a few seconds then repeat. Every single time we talk, it never fails. It was kind of cute but also a bit weird
"Tsss"I shook my head "What you gone do if I ever leave?"
Immediately his attitude changed, Smoke sighed "Why you thinkin like that Nae?"
"I've just been thinking.. I feel like I'm going through some of the same things I went through at home. I didn't leave my moms house to do the same thing somewhere else I left to get away. Since we're in Georgia for a few days I'm gonna give you some space, I'm going my way you go yours when it's time to go home, we'll go together"
I looked over at him to see his facial expressions but surprisingly he didn't even react, he just looked out of the window. I didn't care if he was mad, this is his discipline for his behavior
When we arrived at the hotel I told the chauffeur to wait for me while I go get my bags from our room
I followed Smoke up to our suite where he unlocked the door and we walked inside
"So where you bout to go?"Smoke asked, facing me but typing on his phone
"I'm going to your moms house, Dime said I could stay there"
"So you not bout to be with me on my birthday?"
I grabbed my suitcase and my phone's charger "Nope, you said you weren't doing anything for your birthday so there's no point of me being around. What we gone do, cuddle all day? We can do that Monday, when we go home"
"Alright"Was his only response as I walked to the door
"Don't be in here depressed Smoke, I'll be back Monday before the flight"
I walked out of the room, dragging my suitcase behind me. When I got to the black truck I allowed the chauffeur to take my suitcase and put it in the trunk while I got in the backseat.
It took a good 40 minutes to get the Dime's house, once I did I jumped right out of the truck, grabbed my suitcase and made my way to the door.
I knocked a few times, seconds later Dime opened the door with a huge smile on her face
"Naeeee"Dime exclaimed while pulling me into a tight hug
I walked inside still hugging her "You look soo good"
"Thank you, so do you"We finally pulled apart
"I'm so happy you're here, we need to catch up" Dime mumbled "I know Smoke mad as hell that you left"
"Why you say that? He didn't seem mad he was actually cool with it"
"For real?"
I nodded "Plus it's only for a day I'll be back with him Monday"
"His birthday is tomorrow though"
"I'm aware, but he'll be fine. Anyway, what's new with you?"I asked as we walked to the living and sat down beside each other on a couch
"Well.. I got me a boo, he's one of Smoke's friends"
"You sure Smoke ain't gone have a problem with that? I mean Smoke's friends aren't the best of people. None of them are really good influences"
"Everything can't always be about Smoke Nae it's about me and my happiness. He's just gonna have to deal with it cause we're 4 months in so he's definitely not going anywhere"
"Aww well, I'm happy that you're happy"
"Thank you that's why I love you"Dime squeezed me into another hug "I miss y'all living here, why can't you just stay for like another week or two"
"Cause your brother, he is gonna throw a fit"
"You right, you know he don't want you out of his damn eyesight"
"Yeah, I think he's gotten way too-"
Dime cut me off "Territorial?"
"That too, but I was gonna say possessive"
"How?"
"Well for one, this nigga broke my phone a few days ago and then literally cuddled me for the rest of the night"
Dime laughed a little "My bad I'm laughing cause I already knew this was gonna happen. Nae, warning come before destruction and I warned you"
"You did, I mean, it's not super bad at home he's just a little crazy over me"
"I think it's a cute thing for now"
Dime and I continued to talk, we basically talked until the sun went down. When it got super dark and we felt tired she directed me to the guest room where I took a shower then laid down it didn't take long for me to fall asleep
The next day
"Ouuu look at you"Adelyn smiled while staring at me
"Look at me? Look at you"I said, boosting her
She did a pose before busting out laughing "You look good Miss Adelyn"
"Thank you, girl I been working out. Tryna' get back in shape, I been single for too long"She joked making Dime roll her eyes
"Nae, you still need to curl your hair?"Dime asked and I nodded
"Where y'all going?"Adelyn question
Dime handed me the curling iron "We going to a party ma"
"What party?"
Dime ignored Adelyn's question "Did you tell your son happy birthday? You know it'll mean a lot to him"
"Why would you ask me that knowing you ain't gone like the response"
"Did you tell him happy birthday or not? it's a yes or no question"
"No I didn't and I don't plan on it, is that what you wanted to hear?"
Dime gave her the side eye before walking straight out of the bathroom then out of the room
"Looking in from the outside I probably sound like the worst mom on earth, but if you knew who Smoke really is you'd understand why I am the way I am"Adelyn attempted to whisper
"Mom no one needs an explanation, can you give us some privacy"Dime walked back into the bathroom
"It was nice talking to you boo, don't be a stranger"Adelyn then walked away
"She's so fucking miserable, she makes David's life a living hell, and you wonder why he acts the way he does"
"Let's lighten the mood"I unlocked my phone, went on iTunes then played Megan the stallions new song Body
I always knew just how to get Dime hype, she stuck out her tongue before jiggling her thighs.
It didn't take long to curl my hair, by the time I was done Dime was all dressed up and ready to go, so was I.
The both of us walked out of the house then got inside of Dime's Benz, since she wanted me to drive I adjusted the rear view mirror to my liking. As soon as I put in the address to the club I drove out of the neighborhood.
When we got to the club I parked the car.
"Hold up let me take some videos"I went right on Snapchat to take a few pictures and videos. When I felt like I took enough we both made our way out of the car then towards the club
Crazy Story by King Von flooded my ears as I walked behind Dime into the club, she held a tight grip on my hand.
"Renaeeee"Levy exclaimed, holding her arms out to embrace me
I hugged her "Hey baby, how have you been?"
"I been good. How you been?"
I shrugged "Good"
"You look good, turn around do a spin for me"
With a smile on my face I slowly spun around, showing off my curves "You look so good Nae, you growing up on me"She playfully frowned
"Why you ain't come in with Smoke?"
Confused as hell, I said "What you mean come in with Smoke? He's here?"
"Duh.. I mean this is his birthday bash, of course he's here"
As if him being present didn't already throw me off the words "birthday bash" made everything even worse. How the hell does MY boyfriend have a party and fail to invite me?
"You know where he at?"I asked Levy
"Yeah he should be in his section, it's right over there"Levy pointed over to a crowd of people behind a long red rope.
"Nae, how the hell did you not know that this is Smoke's party?"Dime asked, making me look at her
"Last I talked to your brother he said he wasn't doing shit for his birthday. He never said he was having a party that's why I'm so confused"
Dime's mouth dropped, she shook her head "So what you gone do?"
I didn't respond instead I stormed over to the section. "Oop wifey's here"Some random chick shouted walking passed Dime and I with a group of girls
I brushed it off, continuing to make my way inside of the section that is until I was stopped by another woman, this one a bit more bold than the other "You might not wanna go over there"The female smiled
"And .. why is that?"
She didn't reply she just busted out laughing which nearly rose my damn blood pressure
"What the fuck is so funny?"Dime shouted over the music, she stared the girl down as she walked away "The fuck wrong with these bitches tonight?"
"Dime just relax"I said, we both kept walking deeper into the section
I spotted a few men throwing dollars on strippers who were shaking ass, I saw some niggas taking shots of liquor then I spotted a woman giving some random dude a lap dance, I looked away but quickly looked right back at the two when I realized that the random dude was Smoke.
My heart felt like it dropped out of my chest and fell into the acid of my stomach. I gasped lowly once Smoke laid his eyes on me, at that point I knew he was doing this shit out of spite. He watched me while drinking straight from his bottle of Don julio.
My blood was already boiling, I could barely even control myself. I stormed up to him and completely pushed the raggedy ass bitch away from him. I swung my left hand up in the air and it came sweeping right across his face. I didn't stop there though, I sent blow after blow after blow to his chest and arms since I was repeatedly missing his face
I felt someone tug on my Jean jacket from the back, assuming that it was the girl I pushed I turned around swinging.
"Renae! Renae! Stop!"Finally realizing that it was Dime I stopped and began to fight my way out of her grasp
"Let me go!"
"Nae"Smoke shouted, attempting to help Dime hold me still
"Don't touch me!"I yelled, still trying to pry myself away from them both
"Smoke, just don't touch her right now"Dime shouted
She rushed the both of us away from the section "Nae, relax for me please"
I didn't even notice that tears were all over my face until I started to wipe my cheeks "I can't fucking believe this shit"I screamed out in pure frustration
Dime held a tight grip around my waist as we walked outside
"Nae please calm down"
I stood in place, vibrating my leg with my arms crossed over my chest that's until I saw Smoke walk out of the club. I began to walk away having Smoke and Dime string behind me
"Renae"Smoke called out
"Just leave her alone Dave"I heard Dime say although that didn't stop him
Smoke yanked my arm forcing me to face him
"Bruh let me go"I yanked myself out of his grasp
"Yo you need to chill"
"Chill? After you just humiliated me? Had them bitches in there giggling and smiling in my face cause you over there doing some trifling ass shit?"I snapped "You just love making me look stupid don't you?"
I wasn't calming down any time soon, I was vexed
Smoke didn't say anything he just stood there with a dumb look on his face which just made me even more mad.
"Why Smoke? I'm nothing but good to you"
"I don't know man it's like I don't be thinking" I knew Smoke all too well, most of the things he does really doesn't have true meaning it's as if he acts out irrationally. I knew he had intentions of hurting me for that moment but I'm sure he didn't think about how it'd hurt him in the long run
"You just wanted to hurt me, why cause I asked for some space? You did all of this because I asked for a day of space?"
Smoke hesitantly nodded
"You're horrible, you don't have a heart. I don't know what I was thinking trying to settle down with someone like you."
Still, he said nothing
"Bye Smoke"
As he tried to grab my hand I moved so that he couldn't. Dime and I made our way to the Benz we came in only to have Smoke follow behind us
"Smoke leave the girl alone, you've done enough tonight"
"Dime, be quiet"Smoke said sternly
I climbed into the drivers side of the car while Dime climbed into the passage seat.
I couldn't help but watch Smoke from the side view mirror as he climbed into his car as well
"He's about to follow us"
"I know"
We sat there for a good five minutes I didn't bother to leave since I knew he'd follow us to where ever we're going
"Nae"I heard him shout. I watched him as he came up to my window although I didn't look his way instead I started the car
"I'm not letting y'all leave"
"Drive off, you done with his ass"Dime stated although I ignored her
Instead I rolled the window down causing him to beckon down to me
"You're such a hoe Smoke, you're so fucking heartless, you don't care about shit but yourself. I can't be with somebody like that. You do shit that don't make sense at all. I'm not shit but good to you. I take care of you, I give you love just to walk in to a party that I wasn't even invited to-"
"Nae, this shit was so last minute, I just put this shit together"
"I don't give a fuck, how dare you? Have a bitch giving you a fucking lap dance? Everyone knows we're together do you know how embarrassing this is? When I wake up imma have to see this shit shit all over the internet because of you, because you wanted to be spiteful"Tears that built in the rim of my eyes threatened to fall as I stared into Smoke's cold brown orbs
"I'm sorry Nae, I don't like when you leave me you know how I can get, I can't even control half the shit I do I just be wildin' I tried to hurt you and I did. I see it all over your face I'on like hurting you. You all I got, I'm all you got"
"I wish I didn't do half the shit I did, it's like I don't even be me sometimes cause if I was in my right mind I would never wanna hurt you. You gotta bare with me"
I was entirely hurt but I was even more embarrassed. I didn't want to leave Smoke at all but I knew I'd look so damn stupid and naive if I just went home with him tonight
I looked over at Dime who seemed just as disoriented as me, I couldn't ever take advice from Dime when it came to Smoke because she always has just as much sympathy for him as I did.
I raised my eyebrows at her, tears still flooding my eyes. With sorrow masking her entire face, Dime slowly shrugged her shoulders as if she was saying "Why not?"
I definitely hated to feel stupid, but I couldn't hide the fact that I was naive. I knew I couldn't stay away from him at all no matter what he's done.
Okay guys sooo.. don't be like Renae. Know your worth!!!
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