2.57 p.m. Three minutes left, I can do this. The hands of the clock seem to be moving slower than ever today, but that's just because I'm nervous. Thunder and lightening boomed out in the sky outside the window and I involuntarily shiver. I need to get out of this school fast before someone notices how strangely I'm acting.
To say last night was perfect is an extreme understatement. We stayed in her shed like we were, completely content with just being that close to each other until I had to go. She dropped me home and said goodbye with a kiss on my cheek and a dorky wave. I didn't sleep at all if I'm honest, it was like there was a hurricane in my tummy. My body felt light and I would squeal in excitement at the thought of her. Of course I came home to an empty house and Jake didnt call but I honestly couldn't care less.
The trouble started this morning when my mom caught me smiling to myself when I remembered something Lauren did the other day. She confronted me about it knowing I never smile in the morning and I tried to brush it off as if she was making things up. And then at school Jake asked me, I quote, "Why are you walking like you're a rabbit on crack today Mila? Looks like you've been sitting beside that stoner too much" I just replied with something about being excited for prom to be announced for this year but the cause of me being on a high all day was in fact the result of 'that stoner'.
She walked into math class earlier that day, denim jacket on dragging the boots on her feet with her and then sat down beside me. I tried to keep my eyes forward but she caught me smiling, causing her to smirk and me to blush.
She quickly took out a pen and a notebook and scribbled something in her loopy handwriting.
"Good morning sunshine."
I couldn't hold back my smile as my read the paper. I took out a pen myself and quickly wrote a reply.
"Hey there you."
She didnt seem at all focused on the class taking place and I knew I wouldn't get any work done day with her beside me so I turned my attention to her as she wrote.
"You look beautiful today my love. I was wondering if I can take you out again?"
While I read her reply my mind was at war with itself. I'm meant to hate this girl. The whole school would flip if they knew Camila Cabello was riding around after school on the back of the new girls motorcycle. And if anyone found out we kissed, well I can wave my social status goodbye. I need to stop this no matter what I'm feeling for her, this can't happen. My life was fine before she invaded it and I'm not going to let some free lace biker girl alter the status quo of my life.
"Lauren last night was a mistake. Please leave me alone from now on," I wrote back. Even if my heart was breaking with every word I wrote I knew this was for the best, wasn't it? I mean she could find someone who can love her right and deserves what she has to give. I don't deserve half of the affection she gave me in one day. She'll find someone who can hold her hand and make her laugh; but god I wish I could do it instead of some stranger who will mistreat her love.
"I like your hair like that, it makes your eyes sparkle" she had written back and my face etched with confusion. Did she not see what I wrote? I circled the words and pointed arrows towards it, but all she did was draw a heart with the initials L.J and C.C inside it. I huffed in frustration and she smirked again. I couldn't believe her, she was like a leach I couldn't get off.
"Leave. Me. Alone." I spelt out on the page and I did my very best to ignore her through the rest of the class, but she was being consistently wonderful. She stared at me with adoration all the way through the class, as if I was some work of art. When a strand of hair fell from behind my ear she tucked it away again, she tried to hold my hand multiple times and she placed her hand on the base of my back again like the night before, rubbing soothing circles there. I closed my eyes for a brief second before snapping out of it. She won't get the best of me today and I can't let myself slip further into her.
The bell finally rang and she shot up and walked towards the door, opening it and waiting for me to walk out. I completely ignored her and I hoped no one noticed our interactions.
My heels clicked down the hallway while heads turned to stare at me. I had a free period so i went to grab books from my locker to do some homework. 5 minutes later I was on my way to class when an announcement sounded out through the intercom into the corridor.
"Can Camila Cabello please make her way to the 4th floor left wing corridor, thank you," and then it went silent. I was confused about why I was called up to the forth floor since no one goes up there. No classes were held on that floor, and it was a barren wasteland all year around.
I made my way up there and of course, there at the end of the corridor is Lauren looking as cute as ever. Yesterday I got to see her at a very soft and almost vulnerable state, but today her smirk is firmly in place and her stance was confident yet 'Im too cool for this'. I rolled my eyes and I go to walk away but she starts to slowly walk towards me. I stood still while she approached me, until she was completely invading my personal space again. Her nose was almost touching mine and I felt my skin hum reacting to her presence. She pulled out three roses; one purple, one orange and one dark pink from her back pocket and twirled them in her hands. She was silent for a minute before speaking softly.
"The purple symbolises protection and adoration, two things I can unconditionally promise you. The orange means passion and fiery emotions, kind of showing you how I feel. I feel like I'm on fire around you. My senses buzz and my mind is a whirlwind of only you. And the dark pink symbolises appreciation. Once I make you mine I won't let a day pass without you feeling beautiful, I promise you."
"Lauren you can't do this anym-" I started but she interrupts me quickly.
"I couldn't get you out of my mind all night. When I want something Camila, I don't stop until I get it, and you're all I see. I want to make you happy, explore you and learn everything about you. Just give me a chance. We can take it slow, I can wait, you can ignore me all you want but just give me confirmation you'll try, once."
She handed me the roses and then her hands dropped to my waist. Her forehead was against mine and I could feel my heart about to jump out of my chest. We were so close the breath that left her mouth was the one to enter mine, and I couldn't help but bring one of my hands up to trace her jaw. She really was perfect. I couldn't deny I wanted this, a lot. I'm so confused and everything she is could all be a mirage but it feels so right, like I'm walking on clouds. I looked into her eyes and she was staring right at me, and for the second time in 24 hours, I leaned in and I kissed her.
She put everything she had into the kiss, and I hope she could realise that I was too. She was always so gentle but there was something else in this kiss, a spark if lust that sent a shiver down my spine. Her tongue darted across my lower lip seeking permission to enter and I happily obliged, feeling my knees go weak when her tongue touched mine. She tiled her head to deepen the kiss further, it was slow, passionate and driving me insane. My arms were around her neck and my hands found there way into her hair, tugging at gently causing her to moan. Oh my god, I made Lauren Jauregui moan. She rubbed my hipbones and tugged my body closer to her so we were flush against each other. My senses were going crazy and I had to have her, ever inch of here before I exploded.
She slowly backed us up until my back gently hit the lockers that lined the hall and ran my hands through her hair and down her neck pulling her closer. She pushed our hipbones together and I swear I almost passed out.
When air became a need we broke apart, she then moved her lips down to my neck. The kisses she planted weren't like the ones that she had given me yesterday but long, passionate love bites all down my neck until she met my pulse point and sucked gently causing me to let out a moan from the back of my throat. My eyes were closed and my chest was heaving. "Lauren.." i moaned out. I was in so much pleasure I started to rock my hips while she sucked harder and her hands found there way under my shirt.
She finally brought her lips back to mine and our tongues met instantly, causing me to melt. Our tongues moved together like they were dancing, our hips grinded against each others and I could feel every inch of her on me.
We finally broke apart again and I kept my eyes closed while our foreheads rested against each others. She always makes me feel like in tingling in bliss, completely content with everything. I looked up to see her beautiful green eyes boring into mine.
"How did you get them to announce that on the intercom?" I whispered and she chuckled which made my heart race.
"Well they don't even lock the doors to the office so what do you expect?" She said softly with a playful tone and I honestly couldn't believe her. She acted as if slashing tires and trespassing was nothing, but I'm not going deny that the dangerous side of her makes me crazy.
"Baby.." She started, and I responded by pulling her closer so she had her whole body leaning against mine and staring into her eyes. "Will you give me a chance?" She whispered and a million thoughts ran through my head. Is this safe? I mean what do I have to lose? I know she wouldn't tell anyone about this, I do trust her. But we'd have to be careful, we can't have anyone knowing what we're doing; secret nature of it all makes me giddy just thinking about it.
Contrasting to my better sense of judgement I had to admit I did like her. I knew this wasn't infatuation after the time we had spent together the pervious day, what I was feeling was in fact an attraction to this girl. She made me feel high and my heart race and like life can be bubbly. I've never been one to deny myself things that make me happy, so I finally made up my mind.
"Yes, I will," I giggled out before a huge smile engulfed her face. She picked me up by circling her arms around my waist and unlike yesterday I welcomed it, in fact I found it rather cute. I wrapped my legs around her waist and threw my head back laughing while she screamed a chorus of "HELL YEAH"'s and swung us around.
She finally slowed down the spinning around and I tightened my grip around her neck so our foreheads touched again and I bit my lip while looking into her eyes. We stayed like that, her holding me up while I stared into her eyes before she finally whispered, "I'm falling hard for you Camila Cabello."
God what have I gotten myself into.
The rest of the day was filled with stolen glances and secret touches until I was sat here, in my last class. Rain pounded on the window and I bought my car today so I could run out to the car park, get home in 20 minutes flat and watch pretty little lairs for the rest of the evening in a house all to myself; perfect.
The bell finally sounded out and I sprinted out of the classroom and to my locker. Once I collected everything I needed I walked to the main door to be met by rain. There was a huddle of boys talking at the door and it couldn't have been any easier.
"Austin baby?" I said in a tone that would make you think butter melted in my mouth. The tall boy turned around and flashed me a huge smile before stuttering out a hello. "Honey I know this is so rude and totally, like, so much to ask for but my cars all the way over the other side of the car park and I was wondering if I could borrow that umbrella you've got?" I flirt out while twirling a piece of my hair between my fingers.
"Yeah sure Mila anything! Here, take it I don't need it anyway. Wouldn't want to get that pretty hair of yours wet," he quickly replied while hanged over the umbrella.
"You're such a cutie Aust, I owe you big time thank you!" I giggled out while flashing him a huge smile. The minute I turned away my mask fell and I briskly walked towards my car. God boys are so stupid sometimes, not like Lauren. It's like she can see straight through me into my soul. A shiver went down my spine as I thought of her and a smile played on my lips. I wonder did she know the effect she had on me already. I wasn't sure but I knew I'd find out soon.